"to be"

to love or not to love
if i say I'm in love with you
I'm loving no one else
but if i don't love i cant seem to love my self

to hate or not to hate
if i hate i make enemies,
and if i don't i could make friends.
love is the cure and revenge is the remedy,
good things never last they always seem to end.

to be smart is to be highly thought of
because geniuses are worth remembering
to be dum is not to be thought of
because they cant even remember anything
to be scared and passive is allowing
others to knock you down,
to be courageous is to be
confident is to stand tall,
and standing your ground.
to be false is to be a liar
to be real it, must have proof,
but whats hot isn't always fire.
to have comfort is to be sheltered,
and it doesn't have to have a roof.

to be with someone
is to have a relationship
to be by yourself is to be lonely
to be truthful is to be real
to be fake is to be foney

for me to pretend to be someone else
doesn't fit the role of me
i may want to be many things,
but i can only be me.

my progress

I was once crawling'
poisoned by heart break
my hearts too heavy to balance
my legs cant seem to take
the pain,
stuck in agony
wishing some one could
help me

a little faith came along
and told me to be Strong,
my bodies gaining strength
I'm able to move on

now I'm running
speeding on two feet
without a steady pace
no object can stop me
wearing shoes of faith
I'm slowly taking lift
and preparing for flight
and soon ill be flying
chasing my dreams
right their in the clouds...(at least it thought i was to be continued...)

reconstruction

if i was to ever rebuild myself it would have to be like this
id take my heart out of my chest
and put it on my sleeve,
right where it needs to be.
id take my emotions and throw them in
a river far from me.
id rebuild walls around my mind
that hangs a sign that says "close".
the temperature would dropped in my heart,
so id gather more clothes.
id take a long piss to dehydrate
that left my body dry.
my eyes don't seem to water
and i can no longer seem to cry
ill tie my my hands behind me, so
i can no longer feel.
watch the world outside my window,
and only watch whats real.

no longer reaching for my dreams
and distracted by my thoughts and
acting on my emotions....i can never become
the blueprint of the idea i can only make adjustments we cant change who we are
we just change what we do.

my shadow

you grow when we become distance
you hide yourself in the dark
but you never leave my side
your the outline of me with a dark center
that shows no emotion
and out of everything that i go through,
when life against the wall and
bounces off and as i begin to fall
i notice you coming to my rescue
trying to catch me for
when i fall, its you who i always land on

im so gone

i day dream waaaay too much some times but i think thats whats interesting about me

I cant see whats around me
cant look pass the rain,
they took away my sunny days
and lost my mind in a drain.
i cant hear,
my thoughts play to loud in
my head, that i cant take in
the noise thats near.
i cant feel,
my body is slowly numbs
as the weather gives me a chill.

my prayers

now i lay me down to sleep,
i wonder is my life for keep
and if i die before i wake,
i'll make sure they hear me say
please dont close the gate.

Dear poetry

its been awhile..,
since we talked
talking to you sometimes can make me smile.
it seems you've never left me
as it seems you went everywhere
i would go'
you never abandon me poetry
and never will.. for this i know.
i could tell you about anything
in the message was kept to an hold,
unless i felt i had something to share
my words that where written in bold
titled "poetry".