REFLECTION

Ive found my greatest opponent,
but i cant beat him
and i still continue to fight him
he knows my every move, my every
thought.

we circle each other, like cats in an alley
after sun down where equally matched.
how can i defeat him when i cant gain victory,
i hate the man in front of me,
but i love him at the same time.

he makes me who i am
he shames me at the same time
he's my only father, my teacher who's
cut my childhood short.
he's the reason why i think the way i think
and feel the way i feel
he does not know much about me
i do not know much about him
where enigmas,
which leaves our minds disconcerted

but he troubles me more than anyone
he doesn't have the answer to my depression.
i wish death upon the man in front of me
he's no enemy to me he's closer then that
so why death?
i think about his death but i respect him too
much,
i mean him know harm just a ease of pain

but if i could kill the man in front of me
to take away his misery
we can not make each other happy,
to kill others is genocide,
but to kill him is only suicide